first weigh in

After a few good days of weight watching and sensible eatting, the scales showed a positive turn downward. I hope to feel good enough to work out next week, so maybe that will speed things along, although as a good friend once said, this is not a race. This is a marathon.
Now, the verdict! Drum roll please...
194
That is roughly 4 pounds. I hope anyone who is also on a weight loss journey can keep their heads held high thorough rough patches, like I had earlier this week. Don't be afraid to ask for cheerleaders!

(Special thanks to all my cheerleaders, particularly Amanda Nordin and Ginger Box Harrison!)

injured

I need cheerleaders
I need someone to tell me that I can do this.
Right now, my leg hurts.  (this is my leg)

and I can't work out. My leg hurts, so eating will make me feel good.

Except, um, no. In the long run it will not.

I haven't really done bad, in a non dieting day it would be good. When you are dieting though, it is bad. So basically, I need cheerleaders. Someone to encourage me to move forward.... any takers?

measurements

Thursdays will normally be my weigh in day, but today I went home and left my scale in my dorm room. Opps!
Instead, I will post my measurements. I will try to up date these once a month.

waist (is around your belly button your waist???)- 42
arm- 13 1/2
thigh- 27

     Writing those down made me cringe a little, but at least now I know what areas of my body I need to target. I had two very good dieting days. For instance, yesterday at lunch, I had a salad! I know, I know this should not be a big deal, but for me it kind of was. Salads don't equal meals in my mind. This time, though it was more than enough. I had some left over and it was not just the lettuce! You see, when ever I eat something I always try to eat my least favorite part first... within reason of course. This way I always eat my vegetables!
     I made a lot of healthy choices today, and it made me feel good to make them. This journey is off to an excellent start!
     

and so it begins again

 So I am beginning a new blog, one that I am desperately going to try to keep up. Hopefully we will have regular updates, and maybe even bilingual ones! In this journal I am going to record my weight loss journey for all the world to see, and I am going to be brutally honest. If you are choosing to read, please let me know!

I want to lose weight. I want to lose weight this year, and I want you to join me on this journey. Why blog, especially when I know I am notorious for starting things I do not finish? First, I want to finish something! In addition to losing weight, I hope to learn some discipline! I would like to establish a work out routine, and manage to keep this blog on a fairly regular schedule.

Second, I think this is the only way I can diet on my on. I have 0 motivation, and by doing this I would be held accountable. I really want to feel like there are people watching me, and people wanting me to succeed. This is where commenting comes in! Leave me a comment and let me know if you think I'm doing well, or if you see me slacking off. You could be my army!

This is my weight loss journey thus far:

I joined Weight Watchers for the first time in the summer of 2010. When I joined, I weighed 215 pounds. I got down to 195 that summer, and manage to lose a little more over the next few months. The Wednesday before Thanksgiving that year I weighed 189. Thanksgiving was something of the end point for me, or rather, the beginning of the end. My weight yoyo'd up and down over the next several months, at most going up to 198 and down to the coveted 189. I experimented with Atkins and I Weight Watched on my own. I also went to college, which I don't know if you know this, but all school sponsored gatherings are totally based around food. More specifically, pizza. I sorta kinda made in through, because I avoided the freshman 15, but I have stalled.

My current weight hovers somewhere around 198. I wear a size 14-16 pant, and normally a large up top. I used to could do 40 situps in a minute, but a tailbone injury put me out of commission.

I like my body, but I also like to not base my life around food. I also hate looking up and realizing I am the heaviest person in the room. Oh, and the guy I am “talking to” (which should totally be a relationship option on facebook) weighs less than me. Let's change that!

I have tried Weight Watchers online, and it really has not worked for me. Not to say that is a flawed program or site, I just think it is better suited toward people who have smart phones (not me!) I need public humiliation. I need fear and embarrassment.

Writing down what I weighed was really hard for me to do. Weighing so much isn't feminine, it is shameful. On this blog, I will post my real and true weight * gulp *. Once a week I will update letting you know my progress. I am going take pictures of myself so you to can see what I see in the mirror. Together, we are going to conquer this battle, and maybe figure out why weight is such a struggle to me. I am going to confront my past, look at the pressures society places on me and hopefully lose some weight in the process! I hope you join me because I need allies!